Ready to be myself

Hey all, i know ive failed at posting the past few weeks. Ive just had a lot of stuff going on. Im ready to get back on track and finish what i have started. I weighed myself a few days ago, and i have gained a pound. But im not going to count it! This friday, i will do an official weigh in. Hopefully its better than the last one! Thanks for being patient and for all the support!

Session 1 of 12

Sooo.... Boot camp wasn't so bad.  Our trainer, Adam, is awesome.  He was pushing us during the exercises, but he also helped us with our technique and stuff.  We were probably the youngest two in the class, but there were some older ladies with awesome abs! I was definitely motivated! I feel great now that I have showered, eaten, and relaxed a little. I'm excited for the rest of our sessions!

I'm Back!

Hey all! I know I haven't posted in over a week.  We had Dan's mom and both my parents in town. My little brother came in town the day after all them.  It was a hectic week, so I was unable to work out.  EEEEK! But I tried to eat well, but didn't eat as well as I should or have been. I was too scared to weigh in all weekend for fear of seeing all of my hard work go down the toilet!

But today is the start of a new week and a new adventure.  Today, me and my friend Liz are starting a 4 week, 12 session boot camp!  We go 3 days a week for a month and it only cost us $25 each on Groupon! I'm slightly freaking out as I think about my experience in a REAL military boot camp.  Now don't get me wrong, Navy boot camp 4 years ago was not all that hard, per say.  But I was in excellent shape leftover from my softball years.  This time, I weigh almost 100 lbs more, have given birth that resulted in a broken tailbone, and haven't done anything super athletic in a very long time (excluding P90X).  I'm terrified that I'm going to look and feel like a walrus doing these exercises.  Have you ever seen a walrus move around?! It's awful to watch.  I guess I'll let y'all know how it goes, so expect another post this afternoon.  Wish me luck!

Push ups aren't easy for walruses... walri?

Weigh In Fri...Err.... Saturday?

For those of you who don't know, my amazing husband came home from a month long underway yesterday!  I spent the morning doing last minute things to the house, doing my hair and makeup, hanging the welcome home banner, dressing the baby. It was a busy morning! I didn't have time before taking a shower to weigh in and what not, so I waited until this morning to do it.

Lucas seeing daddy for the first time in a month!

I am pleasantly surprised with this weeks results.  I can't believe I'm ACTUALLY losing weight!  My friend Erica is on a journey of her own.  She definitely has a fraction of the weight to lose that I do, but she's making awesome progress too! I think she's down over 13lbs since she started a few weeks ago.  She has even inspired her boyfriend to drop soda and work out a little bit.  He's down 10 lbs! It's so motivating to see other people working towards their goal.  I'm so proud of both of them!

Alright, time for the good stuff. I took measurements this week too. Those will be at the bottom of this post.
Last week's weight:

This week's weight:

3.8 lbs down this week! It must be from the P90X I restarted on Monday! I am half a pound away from reaching 20 lbs lost. I'm about 1/5 of the way done with my journey!

Now for the measurements:
Neck: 14.5 (-.5")
Waist: 38" (-1")
Hips: 47.5" (-1.5")
Bust: 42" (-1.5")

Those are the major changes.  I lost a total of about 2 inches from each arm and each leg, too.  Thank you for the support! No I must go feed myself and my awesome kid!

Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes!

Last night, I restarted P90X.  I fell off the work out wagon for about 2 weeks, but I'm back on it! My mind is in the right place again, I feel great! I took a picture of my face last night, and compared it to another from a few weeks ago.  I can see a difference, can you?

Jan 12, 2012

Feb 6, 2012

I know the angles aren't the same, but you get the idea.  I'm very happy with how my body is changing.  I do need to focus a lot more on weight training, I think, to tone up all the loose skin that is associated with weight loss.   My size 20 (eek) jeans are super loose right now, which is awesome.  I have one pair that I can pull on and off without undoing the button or zipper! I really should have done this a while ago!

If you can read this, thank a service member for the freedom to do so!

My "Virginia Beach Best Friend", Liz, posted today on her blog about her feelings of being "left behind" as a military wife.  It got me thinking about how I feel about my own struggles as a Navy wife.  This upcoming deployment won't be my first try, but I am  by no means a professional at being a "single" mom.

Our last night with Daddy.

Last year, I had a job and Lucas was barely mobile.  The six months went by pretty quick.  The worst part for me was feeling guilty about getting to see Lucas do so many exciting new things, while Dan was missing out.  Sure, I sent him tons of pics and wrote to him everyday about what was going on.  But a picture or email could never convey the awesomeness of seeing your child figure out how to roll over, crawl, and even use a straw.  Those are things that most people take for granted as parents, but those are things that Dan will never know of his first born.  Can you imagine missing out on 6 months of your child's first year?  Or even worse, missing the birth of your child as some military men do?  Not from being a dead-beat dad, but from serving your country and providing for your family? I couldn't do it.

Last deployment's cruise book picture of Dan

This deployment, Dan will leave a happy, energetic 17 month old and return to a cranky,energetic two year old.  Lucas says a few words already, but will become much more vocal in the coming months.  Dan won't be here to help me discipline and figure out what works for us.  He will have to learn how to handle a child who is making decisions on how he acts, not just a baby that doesn't know any better. I will have to be good cop and bad cop while hoping I make the best choices for both myself and Dan.  I need to make sure to not take anything for granted, so I can share all the little things with the daddy on the other side of the world.

Homecoming 2011, father and son reunited!

Last deployment, I let myself gain 50 pounds of fat.  I felt sorry for myself, and was overwhelmed with being alone. I have come to realize that I am not alone.  I have a loving family who cares even from 1000 miles away.  I have friends who understand being left behind.  I have an amazing son who keeps me on my toes.  I also have a husband who is strong enough to comfort me, even though deployment is harder on him. 

So, this deployment is for him.  I want to be the strong one for him so he can focus on his job and not worry about us.  I WILL lose weight, not because he thinks I'm fat, but because he deserves a healthy wife.  He deserves a wife that can keep up with housework and Lucas.  I know he will never, ever say otherwise, but he deserves a wife that looks as good as he makes me feel.  I want him to be proud of me, just as I am of him.  I am doing this for me and him, just as I do whenever he is gone. 

Love my family, not my ass!

Friday Weigh-in!

 It's that time again, every one's favorite time of the week! I've been awful, and haven't worked out all week. :( Sunday, Tuesday, and Wednesday were spent painting our upstairs bedroom with a friend. Painting an awkwardly shaped room while wrangling a curious 16 month old is actually pretty difficult.

There were two instances of paint eating (and subsequent mouth wiping with a paper towel).

 This room used to be half done with robins egg blue on the ceiling and a spring green on the walls.  The doors, jambs and window were painted this awful dark brown color.

Even the window pane had paint on it!  Our last roommate left us with a mess. But we won't go there. We had to put two coats of primer on the ceiling and and one on the walls with two coats of paint.

It was definitely a hard project. It looks awesome after all the work! It's pretty bad that the nicest room in the house is a guest room that we never go into. oh well, what do you do? On Monday, I spent nap time repainting the garage door and shutters in the front of the house.  It needs another coat, but I haven't had enough time to do it.  Just don't look at it up close. Kthanks.

Now, on to what you really came here for. Lucas and I have been sick the past few days.  I have never seen that much snot come from his little nose.  He spent last night coughing every few hours. It breaks my heart to see him so miserable.  Especially when I feel so miserable! My weight definitely reflects my lack of effort this week.  So, here it is:

Last weeks weight was 237.2

This weeks weight is...

 235.8! Progress is progress!! That's a 1.4 pound difference! It's not as much as it could be, but we all have off weeks, right?  Next week I'm going to check in with my body measurements too. Next week, Lucas will be getting a daddy shaped surprise too!  Thanks for checking in with me!